Tiredness is what I'm feeling. What is the cause of this fatigue? Is it laziness or a lack of direction in life. There are many things that needs to be done. There are many things that can be done but then again why is it that I just don't feel like doing anything. Often distracted by things of less importance. Nitty gritties fill my precious human life. Thinking that I have done so much only to realise that they are no more than chores. Like a headless chicken running around, not knowing what to do but only to wait for the life to be exhausted. I guess doing something is often better than not doing anything at all. Lying there, after lunch, with eyes glued to the screen. Tired...tired... tired... am I really? Or is it laziness. Thinking that I can do it later. Still have time. Don't worry. It's a struggle. Still is a struggle. Struggling. Reflect, reflect, reflect... precious human life, limited, uncertain, definite. One chance. NOW. there is space. do what is right. what is necessary. what is important. a job. gives meaning. gives purpose. but in the end, it's the end. unless you make sense of it. survival. purpose. to serve. others. with compassion. only one chance. is it now or just a dream. too idealistic. maybe just start. never really important. take the walk. make sense. make my life make sense. connect. link. perhaps. maybe. possible. fear. lonliness. mediate. connection. universe. one. same. suffering. end of suffering. end of life. cycle. striving. walk the path. morality. concentration. wisdom. what is? who cares. labels. breathe. mindful. disintegrate. slowly. realising. the truth. mediate on the path. I do not fear death. I fear not living. I am. I am not. Not I.
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