How can I be at peace with myself? Burdened by the past and worried about the future. Worried about the potential lost? A lost of control? A lost of self confidence? I do not feel competent no more. Helpless. What was it? Is it failing to be good at my job? Is it about losing my first love? Is it a combination of factor? Have I really failed? Have I made all the bad decisions?
I want to be at peace with myself. I want to accept the situation that I am in. I must accept my failures. I must accept my strengths. I must accept my fears. I may not overcome all my fears but I can recognise their existence. I know my strength and I will use it to help me find peace. I might have failed but I know my failures do not define who I am, but rather they are what I have done. They are outcomes, driven by actions, given the conditions. They are not me. Success is not me, just like failures. Why then do success make me happy and failures upset me if they are not me. Be Contented with what I have and Appreciate them.
Actions beats inactions. Actions results in outcomes. Inactions results in outcomes. But the outcomes are different. Remember - Morality, Mindfulness, Concentration, impermenant, unsatisfactorily, not self.
It doesn't matter if the outcomes are not what I expect. At least I have taken a step. I have progressed. No need to think too much about what has not happened. Live in the moment. Contentment, appreciation, understanading. Detactment, non-judgemental, acceptance. Follow the breath, like a spider that moves back to the centre of his web. Practise NOW. Settle your mind. Be at peace with yourself. You do not have to be this or that. You just be. It is you. Just be.
